"I wait and tell myself - life ain't chess"

I got into drinking tea and coffee on the step outside my block late at night sometimes during this year, I often found it useful to think about things in a more calming atmosphere than my room, I don't often do it at home but I did it tonight for the first time since (and having checked my blog I think this is pretty accurate) April 11th. Back then was the start of a particularly long game of chess, let me explain:

I seem to approach some life situations like I am playing chess (not surprising really, my mind works like that on the board so why not external to it?) by this I mean if I am confronted with a decision where I have a reasonable amount of time I play out the consequences of each move I could make and what I think the other person will do. I'm not trying to suggest this as any radical way of doing things, everyone does it really but I do it too much sometimes, get too bogged down with potentiality. Also, it is exceptionally hard to distract yourself from a game of chess, it is easy to forget that things are going outside of it sometimes, I think a streaker at a chess tournament would go about unnoticed.

The problem is that this game of chess is one of the worst I have been involved in, for any observer I have played it just right, my positioning couldn't be better and there is only one outcome, but unfortunately it doesn't work like that, its hard to win a chess game if the other person has extra pieces. However, a bit ago I was finding it hard to resolve this but I guess sometimes you run out of options, luckily I didn't opt for a clock on this one, and so I think both players will probably leave it unfinished, I guess that isn't a bad thing.

Interestingly I have forgotten who went first in this one, nor if we both agreed to start playing. However, I have definitely concluded that I am better at chess on a board than in life.

Anyway enough of this analogous tomfoolery, I have umm yer know better things to do...

"You should be old enough, you should be old enough, you should be"

Ok so this post is a little late, but I went to London a few weekends ago for a friends party which was cool. He has an amazing apartment in Fulham and it finished off a good year at uni. Went to see my brother after that and went to see "The Futureheads" on the Monday, which was darn good and ever since then i cant get the end of "Carnival Kids" out of my head (they did finish with it): where they stagger saying the line (which is my blog name) over and over again, it is cool. I also love the way that in London (although im sure its like this in other places) some of the venues are old theatres. I like the idea of new purpose for old things, perhaps futureheads being the actors for a modern age... I don't know think im being a little over the top but that is what I started thinking at the time anyway.

Anyway im trying to do my last few weeks in order but got behind due to laptop issues sooo will probably blog again in a few days.

This is officially the worst blog I have ever written.